So many things happening concurrently. 

How do you catch up with it. how do you stay.. well human? so let me take off my shoes, and say ‘i’m home’. a night out. the one i haven’t coloured into my diary for a long time.but then came the never ending other plans, excuses from habit. either way, i abolish any understanding. the ones that prevent us from empathising. for some, it must be hard to comfort others i guess. so now i go back to my ways. and i see; someone else, that it was somebody else. 

it’s been such a long time. such a big hole. need help to be whole. haha really, mmm am i writing as i think. im speaking to myself again. need to make it through the night. good thousands of words.